WHY I'M SINGLE
People ask me why I haven’t married again. Why are you still single? I have not made being in a relationship a priority; something I think has to take place for it to happen. Right now it’s just not my focus. This has been the first time in my life that I’m not in a relationship or dating someone for a significant amount of time. A position I had never foreseen. When did being in a relationship become last on the list? Not really sure. Maybe it was when my business took a financial hit that left me and my best friend and business partner devastated. Maybe it happened when my Mother’s health began failing and she needed me. Or it could be getting through this tough year of residency with my daughter?
No one told me that I wouldn’t meet someone who would be a help to me, but my pride and independence just don’t see it. The only one who can get me through this challenging time is GOD HIMSELF. It is my faith that I stand on. It is the prayers of my Mother that keep me focused. It is in the knowing that my life is not my own that I find my true calling to be a blessing. It is a prerequisite for any man to put GOD first if he were to be part of my life. A man after GOD’S heart can win my heart. It is my belief that you can’t have a relationship without being in relationship with HIM.
I’m not going to settle, but I’m not in a place in my life to have a healthy relationship. I would never expect any man to come in and take on my stresses or responsibilities. There’s no way you can be in a relationship and not be involved in the day-to-day that life brings. Something I’m not expecting. Life happens when you’re waiting and making plans. I’m not going to predict what GOD will bring in my life. Hopefully I’m open.
Know you have to be this tall to even stand in line for this ride. A good friend just reminded me that I am a woman of substance and I have never carried myself with anything but respect. So of course I would only expect a man to come correct or not at all. I am blessed. If GOD were to send a relationship or even marriage into my life again it would only be the icing on a very tasty cake. Gone are the days when the man in my life was my complete focus. Gone are the days of putting my needs and wants on hold. I just can’t do that anymore. I want someone who makes me better. And with every GOD-given dream and vision we help each other make each one come true. I don’t know who he is or what he looks like. I ask GOD to give me a double portion to love him and be a true helpmate to him. I love a happy ever after. This is only the beginning on my fairytale. Being honest about where I am in my life isn’t giving up.
“Every King deserves his Queen.” ~ Veela aka Venus