AM I MARRIAGE MATERIAL? "Not trying to be someone’s wifey or girlfriend. I want to be somebody’s wife!"
Wow is right. I didn’t know it myself. It sort of came out. Sometimes the GOD in you, the subconscious speaks up. When it does you need to pay attention. My Godfather once told me that you should be so in tune with the Father that His thoughts and yours are one. I know that’s scripture, but it doesn’t happen until you surrender yourself (as a friend so gently reminded me). Since my birthday and before, I’ve been giving into the surrender. I finally accepted the calling on my life. I don’t know where that’s going to take me, but I’m ready.
In July it will be 17 years since my divorce. That’s a long time. I’ve been proposed to. But I’ve not had a man in my life that I knew I couldn’t live without. This is terrible to admit, but I love HARD. My Mom’s best friend once said he wish he could find a partner that was half as loving as he was. This is the same man that has flown women around the world and they were just dating. I wouldn’t mind that myself.
I’ve been given the moniker of “wifey”. I don’t like it. Doesn’t work for me. In the end, he only gave me that title to pacify me and make himself feel better for all the dirt he did when we weren’t together. Ever been in the company of your boyfriend/girlfriend and they meet up with a friend and awkwardly try to introduce you? Even better, they don’t even bother. You’re standing there looking dumb; talking to yourself. Should I be insulted? Hell yes! You were good enough to sleep with, but not important enough to be acknowledged.
I may not know what I want, but I’ve had enough experience to know what I don’t want. Here’s the shortlist:
1.A man after GOD’s heart (like David).
2.I can no longer be an afterthought or secondary; I have to take priority.
3.I want my best friend. You share everything, all your secrets with your best friend. That way there are no secrets.
4.I want an ambitious man, because I’m very ambitious.
5.I know I have a dry sense of humor, but humor is like foreplay to me. I’m serious.
I don’t have preconceived notions on how he should look. I’m not that shallow. Raul Midon has a song and in the lyrics it says, “I have waited all my life for you, but I didn’t know it.” I like that. That’s what I want. I offer a lot, and would expect a man to bring a lot to the table. The right man for me will speak to the GOD in me and we’ll have a conversation that only GOD could dictate. Please stop waiting around and putting your life on hold waiting for your husband or wife to find you. When I meet my husband I hope I’m doing something great and wonderful so he’ll recognize me for who I am. His! Special designed and created just for him.
Question: Are you marriage material?